I never dreamed how emotional it would be to be a mother. The myriads of emotions are similar to what my little newborn girl must be experiencing. Of course, hers are a lot easier to soothe for now. One second, there's a smile on her face, and the next, she's screaming at the top of her lungs. One moment, I'm flooded with joy. The next, I'm overwhelmed with a sadness that she's growing up too quickly. Luckily, God blesses us with an abundance of contentment that overrides those other feelings.
I'm sitting here now, three weeks and two days after the birth of Téa. I'm wondering how time has flown by so quickly. Tonight, I sadly put on an outfit I bought for her. It's already too small, but I stuffed her inside so that I could at least say it was worn once.
It's quiet here at 10:30pm. I have a moment of peace and solitude, and I'm thanking God for the amazing ways He works. He's taken care of my biggest worry: Before Téa was born, I wondered how it would be possible to love another child as much as I love her brother. And lo and behold, there is enough love to go around! Maybe not the time or attention, but there is definitely love.
She's so big already. In less than a week, she'll no longer be a newborn. She's already got so much personality: she loves being held sitting up, she loves looking at lights and ceiling fans, she smiled at 4 days old and hasn't stopped, she burps like a champ, she's "liquidy" (as her father has dubbed her), and she grunts like a mini Chewbacca.
She's beautiful. God knew what He was doing. God knows what He's doing. And God must have given her her name, Téa: God's gift. And I feel like she's just that - God's gift to us. His blessings just overflow.
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